The loneliness is getting to me. I miss my rats so bad. They were my friends. I miss the way Remy would snuggle up for warmth while Gus poked around looking for hidden treats. The way Angel would curl around my neck and boggle and brux, and how little Plot Twist would give me kisses and try to take my glasses. I miss the happy sounds they would make when I came in from school or work. I miss everything about them.
Very few of my friends have spoken to me in a good while, so it was like by rats were my world. I feel so alone without them.
Not yet, but soon I may get a few more rats. Remy and the gang wouldn’t want me to mourn forever, right?
Haven’t been able to feel my big toe on my right foot for about a week. Has the diabetes caught up to me? My old nemesis.
I miss my rats so badly right now. It feels like there is something missing in my heart.
Rest in peace, my loves.
I’m not sure what happened, but yesterday was officially the worst day ever. My parents went to check on my rats and found them all dead. All of them. My precious friends. The cages had been destroyed. Mom says the dogs got in the room and then closed the door, but I don’t see how. The door always stayed locked. It doesn’t make sense and I’m in shock. I haven’t slept in two days from crying, and I don’t know what to do with my life now.
Those rats loved me more than any person ever has, and I loved them. They were always so happy to see me, and each day with them was a blessing that I will always be thankful for. My heart hurts and I feel like a failure.
Remy and Gus saved my life once when they alerted my sister that I had blacked out, and Angel and Plot Twist were perfect snuggly angels. Home will never be the same without them. All I have left are pictures and the happy memories that they gave me.
Rest in Peace, Remy, Gus, Angel Rat, Plot Twist, and the two baby rats who hadn’t gotten names yet. I miss you and you’ll always be here in my heart. I hope there are a lot of animal crackers for you to chew on in Rat Heaven, and I hope that one day we’ll be reunited. I love you all.
Just the alternate
For over a year, the most important thing that has taken up my time has been the Linnaean Games, an entomology trivia bowl. I’m the only undergrad on my university’s team, yet my efforts got us to nationals last year. Just a moment ago, the captain of the team told me that my biggest contribution will be cheering from the audience and that I’ve been replaced. After I made it out to South Carolina and am missing a week of school for this thing. I shouldn’t have come here. I hope my school does well, so that I can compete in the finals, but I’m hurt. MSU, you may have just lost my allegiance.
Plot Twist grooming my finger.